Crazy is the best way to describe me

2010-10-20T08:04:00.000-07:00

Ola! I know.. It has been years. Hahahah. But suddenly the mood for blogging just boom! and came and hit me and here i am.. Blogging! Hahaha.. This is history!
Just came back from Beijing. Hahaha... That's kind of like the ONLY interesting things in my life right now.
When the plane just touched down on the soil of Beijing, the first thought that came to my mind: bold. Seriously, guys. It was and still bold. I expected patches of greens greeting me or maybe a little grey because of the roads but instead, brown came into view. Like patches of brown and brown and brown. Hahaha. But it was cool.
Few words to describe China. Loud, Bold, COLD, and loads of wrong spellings, grammar of English. When i reached the airport, i saw this sign, something about rules and regulations and guess what, they refer foreigners as ALIENS. It goes pretty much like this: Aliens who is a citizen of China or Aliens something. I'm seriously not kidding. Too bad i didn't take the picture of it! Pity. Still. It pretty much burns in my memory as it was one of the most hilarious thing I've ever seen. I laughed till my stomach turned over and my mum was just cool because I guess she expected that.
The first day was the best. We went to this place where the whole area was used as a place to exhibit arts and shops that sells awesome arts. It was only for a short time though, because when we reached Beijing, thanks to the delay of the flight, it was already late evening and the shops in the art thingy close early. People who know me knows i like art, especially the weird ones and the ones that require you to think what the artist is trying to convey and I was pretty disappointed as we were there for a really short time and we only saw a few art. But hey! Saw something really awesome! The art thingy has this really big silver cross! Planted right in the heart of the art place. The glorious cross glimmed under the soft moonlight and it was Heaven and I stood there for a really long time, admiring the peaceful scene painted before my eyes. After the art thingy, we went for dinner and hit the pillow and wait for the next day excitment.

Second day wasn't as cool. Went to places like the Forbidden City and Tian an men square and somewhere which i forgot. Hehehe.. Sorry ah. Lousy memory. The exact word to describe those places:crowded. No crap, guys. I could barely breathe there. How shoud i describe it? Hmmm. Okay, erm, imagine ships, sampan, you name it all, filling every inch of the wide sea. Yeah, that how it was. The history was l-o-n-g. I can't remember anything as China history can be traced as far as a few thousands years. Come on! Even Malaysia's few hundred years history pun saya tidak pandai, what more to say thosands of years with all the dynasty and with all the almost-the-same-name emperors who reign in those dynasties? Still, it was cool. The Emperor seriously was considered half-dragon during ancient times. Every inch of China, not just now, but last time as well, was built according to Feng Shui. Every single little details has a meaning behind it. Even the roof was designed with a meaning! And the numbers and everything. I can't name it all. As I said, I have, sadly, an extremely lousy memory.

Well, at least dinner was okay. Breakfast was lousy. Oh, yeah! The scenery there was beautiful! Autumn mah! The leaves of the trees turned dark yellow and they look like they are weeping as they know they have to leave the trees as Winter was approaching. The gardens was cool as well. The lakes, trees, palace, seemed to be painted to perfection for us! It was really cold, though! I remembered, when we visited the Summer Palace, I was practically freezing but it was worth it as I saw a cloud of thin mist hanging just above the lake, the willow trees standing gracefully as if it is dancing with the cold wind and was just there for me to take pictures. The cold wind there was like small, sly and mean blades slowly cutting my skin as it was piercing cold. I could almost cry of coldness! I wore layers of clothes and I was still cold! The tour guide, no rasa. Make me kek tiok. Oh well, at least I had the chance to experience the cold wind while appreciating an indescribably beautiful scenery. I was shivering and my teeth started making music by chattering non-stop. Hahahaha.. It was cool! Honesly, I'm grateful as I had the chance to experience those miserably cold days! =)

Ah, well. I'm a lazy person so I'm going to stop here. Hahaha. Oh, yeah! This is for Tian! Tian, to make you feel extremely kek-tiok. I saw pandas. Pandas that were hugging, sleeping, playing and everything. Tian, you really resemble them because they are really lazy (8 out of 10 of Pandas slept when I was there) and guess what, you are too! =D

2010-03-05T23:58:00.000-08:00

Damn.. I'm so bored that i actually update my blog. Why do people have blog anyway? It's for the world to see... =( To me, its something to do when you're superbly bored, your anime is not loading(and extremely irritated) and you are sitting in front of the damn pc figuring what to do..
Sheesh, exam's over. Crap. I seriously regretted not studying. Oh,well.. If there's one thing i will regret my whole life, it would be not studying seriously enough, and i'll do it all over again. Bad habits die hard. Seriously.
Most of the time during exam, i'm sitting down, looking around, and then start squeezing my brain juice how to tell parents that my results sucks. =( What to do..... i hate studying.
If i'm not doing that, i'll be scribbling something, or draw something very not creative, and waste paper, which isn't the best thing, i know. But still, i'm bored ba... I hate something about myself, that is getting bored very easily. I realized something, sleeping in class during exam isn't that comfortable. Not because of the fact that i'm sleeping, during a test but the fact that it's seriously not comfortable! I mean, my arms will get tired after my heavy head crush on them. Besides, do you want people to see the way you sleep? or the face you're making? Bet your ass not.
That's one thing i'm sure about this exam though, I'm failing chinese, geo, sej. Shitty, aint it? When i first saw the chinese exam paper, i was like technically speechless. It was so damn difficult. I'm staring at the foreign language and it's staring back at me. I'm like, i'm so dead!
Looking at the chinese characters really make me depressed. Fist five minutes of chinese exam, i almost cried cuz i know i'm gonna flunk chinese. Next five minutes, i accepted the fact that i'm gonna fail and gonna have to face parents. Next five minutes, i start 'tembak-ing' answers that almost look alike with the questions. Sad, isn't it?
That's it. Same goes with my geo, khb and Sejarah.
Life sucks during exam. And exam is the best time to 'open-up the creative side of drawing' of you. Cuz, you'll have nothing to do, and start drawing randomly, and who knows? You may be the next Leonardo DaVinci dude.

2010-02-15T01:33:00.000-08:00

Haiya, i'm so bored that i have to do SOMETHING before i go like crazy and start smashing things around my house. During chinese new year, all i do is stay at home, waiting anime to load, it's loaded, i watch, then i repeat the same routine, go sleep, eat, eat. and repeat everything again. =O
Visiting to jaja and yian's house is cancelled. Was actually, looking forward to it since i'm a dead fish at home. But since chen has to go somewhere, some chinese name, that i didn't know existed in Kuching, so it's cancelled. Not chen's fault, her parents last minute, but it's okay, chen! Okay, why do i dont sound like myself now? haiya, probably boredom took over my brains...
Watched some weird movie with Dad. Can see he's bored to death too. We are like super random and dad was like, let's go watch some movie.. I said what movie, he said, CHINESE movie. I have no choice but to agree cuz it's so much better than cutting myself up at home because of deppression. Hehe
The movie was a bit ... weird. Lots of fighting and chinese language.. No big deal, there's something genius called SUBTITLES! In Englishy, of course. Hehe..
Going tonight again, watching valentines' day with parents and parents' friends. Dont be suprised if you see me with a bunch of adults complaining about didn't bring their glasses. xp. I think I'm the only one like, below 16.. I can't hang out with people my age, they don't like me.. Hahaha
It's all twin seats! So have to buy even numbers. Couples seat, they call it. Valentines day=couple seat. Geddit? Dumbshit. What if one person wants to watch? Waste money nya... I dont' mind sitting with strangers...Makan money this MBO...
Gahh... actually planned to finish up all my studies and complete ALL my homework. If you know me, it's impossible! =)

2010-02-10T02:11:00.000-08:00

Hi.. I know my friends are annoyed with me for not updating my abandoned blog.. haha.. Can't blame me, i hate commitments! Even with little things! I just love eating and sleeping and the NEED of it and not wanting and tied to it.. Hahaha.
Hmm... What shall i talk about? Okay, 'friends' are like a hot hot topic now, so i just have to go with the flow, right? Chen just wrote something about the five of us, jaja(jasmyn), yian ling, tian, chen and me. Some cool stuff. Which was really great and awesome, except for the huge big fact that it's in CHINESE.. Hhehe.. So i only understand about... 85 %? But still, without reading the words, i know it's awesome, not for what's written down, but she actually took the time and words doesnt matter! Love and caring does!
Recently, we're really great friends with our 'new' members to the gang! JASMYN AND YIAN LING.. They both admitted that they are actually terrified of me when they first saw me and thought i'm this big scary monster that eat and kill on sight.. Hhaha.. Can't blame them,lots of people say so too.. =( I just have this scary expression? That's why i have to smile! =)
Thank goodness we're in the same group of pameran for sivik! Teacher didn't change us.. It would totally suck if she did change, and i'll get pissed.. Our group (for sivik) was suppose to be BARBIE KILLERS(no offence) but guess what.. teacher say that it was too 'negative'. Apalah... Then we changed to JAMMING CHOCOLATE! It's pretty cool, right? I was thorn between jamming chocolate and screaming marshmellows... hehe. Food freak...
Almost everyday single day, me and jaja play BINGO! During every single damn boring subject. =) she's great. in bingo! hahaha
hmm...
that's all? I'm sorry. It'll probably take it about two to three months to update again, but still, at least i UPDATE right? Hahaha.. Love you guys.. my jamming chocolates 'peng you'

2010-01-05T23:21:00.000-08:00

Walao.. School starts liao. Kanasai. It's feels like just yesterday i woke up and i was so happy that school isn't in my life. Haha..
Anyway, my sitting partner is Jasmyn. Unbelievable le? Hahaha.. She's nice lah. Very cute. In front of me is the two siao lang who make me laugh like siao in de morning and I'll be like, really worn out about 10 smth. It sucks sometimes, really. Imagine you have to listen to bullshit that teacher's babbling and fighting sleepiness at the same time.
I got like, the worse Sejarah and BM teacher ever. Kanasai. You hear their voices, it's like a call to sleep. Seriously.
Got Jenny for Science. Tian scared like crap. Hahaha. We really focus in class. Well, we sit like the last row in science lab(it sucks cuz you can't really hear and see the thingy) Me Tian and Sze kit are very guai ppl. hahaha.. We dont hav science tuition mah, can't afford to have a B in Science.
Got Elizabeth for Englishy. Biasa jak. Alot of people suka her. as teacher. Hahah
Walao, my chinese teacher is like super super super enthusiastic. She asked, who loves chinese to death, and well, alot of people hands up. Then she asked who are forced to take up chinese, only 6 hands up. Haha.. I'm totally one of them. I have to choice but to suffer with this subject.. Sad, aint it?

Talking about crap that you wouldn't bother to read so dont. =)

2009-12-19T01:17:00.000-08:00

Hey.(Do you notice i always start with a 'hey'?) Hahaha.. Not funny
It's Raining! Hahaha... My raining partner Xin Tian hilang from the surface of the Earth during the holidays. Oh, well.
It's been a while since i write emotional stuff. hahaah.. Well, most probably i decided to do that today is because, really obviously it's because of the rain.
Little diamonds dropping down from Heaven. I have no idea why i love them. Maybe because it gives me this sort of... sad feeling. And, ironically, an assuring feeling. Like everything would be okay. Even if it didn't turn out well, let's just say that at least I get to watch the rain drops hit Earth with a beautiful and wonderful melody.
Recently, I found out that one of my friends actually bad mouthed me. Hahaha.. Like that is actually a surprise. It's not. Trust me. In my world, backstabbing has become a custom. Ha. Pretty sad, huh? Well, at least, when all things unveil, you know who your true friends are. Even though it's a really painful, when you look back, you really feel glad. Like the weight of the world has been taken away. =) I've been through that, not only once, honestly, more than twice.
Okay okay, I'm drifting away. Hahaha. Typical me. Always babbling.
Hey! I know something about letting emotional flow out. Writing. Seriously. It works like shit. After you write down what's really bothering you, you really feel .... well. Hahaha. You can choose to tear it though, just in case. You know what i mean by just in case, right?
Okay okay. The rain has stopped. Funny how it ends so quickly, huh? Maybe i would get to see the shiny side of the sky.(Truthfully, i don't like the Sun. It's so..... forcing.)

2009-12-02T00:36:00.000-08:00

Harlo.... I dont really know what to write about.... Fonsa is actually pushing me real hard to update. Hahaha.. I'm not that kind of commit person..
Anyway, holiday is okay... i guess..
Watch anime 24-7 straight till I fell sick. Pathetic, huh? NOTHING TO DO MAH... So, i love Blood+ and Zombie Loan.
Okay, i fell in love twice this holiday. Once with this anime dude name Hagi. Hahha. and then, with Rain(only in Ninja Assassin though.. All that muscles and cute face... Hahhaa) And then i realized, i actually like Sepet guys, most probably because they look funny.=)
Took me 14 years to realize that.
What else... Ahh, Alfonsa's birthday bash.. Not really bash.. but still. It applys.=)
Went to steamboat. I burnt the meat. hahaha.. Did i mention i only ate the lambs? The chicken was disgusting. Anway, i burnt alot and Alfonsa clean my mess up by shoving it all to her mulut. Oh well, you can't blame me.. I can't eat that much. And then came Michelle.. Aduh.. She came to our table with one whole plate of meat. I was like, shit, i'm so gonna puke. Hahaha... And then came another bad news, fonsa said we must finish everything we took or else we have to pay. Walao. hahaha.. I just dump it all to the boys
That's it. Nah, i updated liao, fonsa. I'll update again when i kenak pushed.=)

2009-11-10T17:17:00.001-08:00

Walao....It has been such a long time.
I notice that no one update their blog le... That include Alfonsa.. Hahaha... Always ask me to update.. Sendiri tidak update!
Anyway, exam's over! haha... part of me is happy. Because, heck, who wouldn't be happy to finish their stinky exam?
The another part of me is.. hmm... let's see. mixture of sad, bored, and lazy. Hahaha... i mean, after exam, it's holiday( totally yay) but won't get to see friends that often to annoy them. Haiya. Two months.. I know how my holiday will be like! If my permuafakatan is horrible, then i won't be able to go out. Stay at home, watch anime, sleep, read, tidur. Told you it's sad.
If my permuafakatan is okay(which is totally IMPOSSIBLE cuz i'm such a terrible student with horrible attitude and disiplin) so, i'm allowed to go out more often. That means, twice a month? Horrible, huh?
Bored part? Hmmm.... That's because, i won't get the thrill of tiru in test. Hahhaa. No lah. I din tiru this time. Yeah, the only time i didn't tiru. High five, fonsa! I'm suppose to play Bingo with Tian and Chen! But the strings practise thing is taking up so much of my time that i can't! Urghh... my 25x25 bingo will never end this way... School's gonna end on Friday. Haiya. The strings stuff is okay, i guess. I was actually expecting a bunch of 'hao-lian' ppl who play awesomely well. Hahaha.. Well, thank God it didn't turn out that way. =)
The lazy part? Everyday, i online.. Waiting for people to online to actually talk to someone( pathetic, huh?) and then wait for anime to load.... Watch..... Load.... Watch..... Load.... Yeah, it's practically like that. hahha.. No offence, but online-ing is getting pretty boring for me. Hahaha...
=)

craps....

2009-09-18T18:40:00.000-07:00

Ngaiti.. Holiday so boring le. Have to freakin' study for dumb exam. Dont feel like studying le... Dahlah my sis din study too. Tsk tsk. They are bad influence on me. haha.
Can't wait to go out... with friends, i mean. Ngaiti. Staring up to the skies, the ceiling, the clock, waiting for the time to pass.. But seriously, when we turn back and think back what did we did for the last few hours.. It seems that we just have too much time to waste. Oh, well. That's what we call human, aint it?
Kanasai. Nothing to do when i'm online. Just looking at ppl's blog, crossing my fingers, hoping that someone would UPDATE their blog. haha.. Pathetic, le? Watch anime..and it load sooooo slowly...... Kanasai...
Nothing to write liao. Kanasai. Sorry, i always kanasai. Don't know why. Probably influenced by someone, but i don't know who. Hehehe. That's one thing about me, i'm always ignorant or blur. People already start laughing their guts out, and i'm still blur asking why are they laughing. Sometimes, it's seriously annoying. Hahah. I'm always slow. =)That's just me. Ignorant. I can just walk past you even though i've known you for like maybe my whole life. Haha. As my violin teacher told me once, when i walk, i look up. Hahaha. Well, maybe it shows that i'm optimistic. Which, i'm totally not actually. Hahaha..

so sien...

2009-09-18T04:59:00.000-07:00

Heilo... I'm alive back liao.. Comp crush recently.. Thank God, dad bought new one... hehehe... Don't think i'll like window vista though......
so lazy to update. later lah! =)God bless.!

Random???

2009-08-27T06:59:00.000-07:00

Hello world!! It has been a long time.. Hehehe, Oh well, not that long. But, still.... I didn't wait for one year then i update, didn't I? Take that, fonsa! Muahahaha
Anyway, back to the reality world, you would be surprise where i am right now, well, not surprise 'cuz i was here a couple of time. The answer is.... Alfonsa's house! Not surprised? What did I tell you? Xp. Fonsa s 'rajin' doing geo. Yeah rite. Watching anime is more like it and

GETTING ME ADDICTED!

Ha! What a crazy woman. Drag me into watching anime called.. I don't even know.
It's pretty long actually. I mean, the title... Wait! Fonsa just screamed that it's 'code geass' Yeah. Pretty weird for a title, huh? (Fonsa is saying it's awesome behind me now) Hahaha.. Pretty weird.
I notice something about anime... They are always, i mean, always perfect. Perfect face features, perfect boobs, perfect ass, perfect body shape ( except that the girls body always look too small and fragile and their boobs seem too big and like it's gonna drop in a moment. Come on! The boobs are practically the size of a balloon! Each!)
Okay, why the heck am i talking about boobs now? So wrong... Anyway, i was saying, they are perfect. hahaha..
I gotta admit, the guys in anime are so much cuter and hotter than the guys in real life. But come on, it's what we call reality. That's why it's call this simple word : LIFE. Now, doesn't it hint a little bit of sadness? Hahaha
Anyway, i think that's all.. Hehehe.. Talking about anime for the past few minutes. Never thought i ever could. =)
p.s

HELP! FONSA GOT ME ADDICTED TO ANIME!!!

2009-07-24T05:51:00.001-07:00

HELLO ALFONSA!!!

2009-07-24T05:03:00.000-07:00

Hahaha.. I know. Fonsa, you're reading... Xp.. Still reading?! DO YOUR SENI AHH!!! Tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk ..... Say hi to gretel and Jam for me.

My day started with a bunch of dumb noisy birds knocking themselves on the mirror( Bcuz of reflection of themselves on the window') Haiya. SO noisy ba!
and then i do all the normal things and tada! i went for ISCF chinese. Ha. Shocked? It was okay lah. Kinda weird cuz i actually wanted to do the sign of the cross but hey! They dont! Won't I look like an I-D-I-O-T? so yeah. Haha. Worst, i din't know when to say 'Amen' cuz i din get the prayer cuz it was in C-H-I-N-E-S-E! so yeah. They sang in chinese but English too lah. But when they were singing chinese song i was soo blur and Janice keep on kacau me. Hhahaha.. Anyway, I felt like an alien there. Xp. But it was pretty fun. The pastor was pretty funny lah. and the teacher in ISCF keep on tegur ppl to shut up which was pretty weird to me 'cuz during YCS, our teachers just sit there and listen too. So yeah. Cakap sedikit, kenak tegur. Despite the me not understanding anything, it was pretty neat.But hey, no matter in what language, as long as we are prasing our Lord, it doesn't matter at all. Besides, He understands all languages!!!

Okay, fonsa! I updated! Enjoy reading me making a fool out of myself in Chinese ISCF. I'll update next year! Xo

2009-07-05T17:50:00.000-07:00

Hello.... I'm in Xin Tian's house.. Hehehe... She has four dogs! Pretty dog. She says it's 'kampung' dog but hey! It's not. In fact, one of the puppies look like a wolf.. Hehehehehe... Haiyo. The both of them ahhh... Do Peka.... Me writting crap in blog.. Hehehhee.... Listening to some chinese song! (It's xin tian for goodness' sake! Of course lah chinese!!) Her grandma is speaking Hakka on the phone.. Hehehe.. I UNDERSTAND! Xp.. Stupid, right?
Okay.. Bye bye. The both of them looks like they are gonna rpi each other's head off!

2009-06-30T17:24:00.000-07:00

Walao. Today can be considered as one of my 'soi'(s) days! I think i'll have bruises around me for the next few days!

1st-Janice wong! Goodness me! She squezed my shoulder and wham!I think my shoulder bone is a little cacat already. Hahaha.. So unfair! She's so much stronger than me ba!!
2nd- Tay Guan You! Haiyo! He threw my Bm book and wham! Kenak my face. Ngaiti. It hurt like erm.... Something slam your face. Walao. I certainly ain't want to experience that ANYMORE! At least he apologized. First time i heard him saying" sorry".. Pretty funny.. XP
3rd-Si Dennis Wong. Ngaiti. From the other end of the class, he dares to throw stuff! Walao.. Mana tidak kenak people! And wham! Kenak my shoulder. Thank God x kenak where Janice squezzed. If not, i think the whole school can hear my screams!

I ask you, Soi or not? Aduh.... I should sue all of them. hahah. NO lah! I'm not that evil. Besides, i bet they are all tidak sengaja de.

2009-06-21T17:50:00.000-07:00

You helped me up
You wipe all my tears away with such gentleness
You throw all my fears aside and replace them with joy and peace
You gave me hope and strength
to go through this misery life again
You open up my eyes to see all the beauty You've created with such tender
when i was so blind
You open up my filthy heart
to love and care for one another like nothing matters anymore
You, Lord Jesus, My saviour
You gave me all that
All that hope, strength, love, faith
You never gave up once on me
You gave me hope when i thought all had dissapeared
You gave me strength when i'm weak
You love me when I, myself didn't
You gave me faith to trust in You
I shall not fear of anything
Let the rain pour fiercely
Let the storm unwind furiously
For i have no fear
For My lord, Jesus,
The one who gave His life for me
is here by my side
Guiding me for eternity
Jesus, no one could ever measure up your love
Jesus, you wash my sins away with your blood
Jesus, you never gave up on me though i did
Jesus, you're all i need
You open up your arms and stretch out Your hand
You carried me in your shoulders firmly
Jesus, no one could ever measure up your love.
You wonderful, perfect love.

2009-06-21T17:42:00.000-07:00

Do you ever feel like you really need to laugh but at the same time, you know that nothing can? I mean, when you're really depress and all you need is some word of confidence but you know clearly that no matter what those words are, you're still gonna be sad? or maybe just emo?
Sometimes, you just wan to escape this horrible world and just take a flight to somewhere that is just peaceful with the person you love most?
Everyone needs a break. A time-out.
Do you know the feeling of just shove up a fake smile just so that people around you would feel good bt then you start to wonder, what about me? I want to be true to myself too. I can't afford to fake a smile all the time. The feeling of smilling outside but all you want is to be left alone and just vanish for a that few precious minutes.
There's always another you. Slowly creeping out. Trying so hard to get out. But it can't. Because once it's unleash, everything would fall apart. and life would be so much worst. But at that time, you don't give a shit about anything. You just want out.
But, face the truth, Krys. Nobody can ever escape the misery of life. Everything always comes with a price, an expensive price. This is shithole, people, is what we call, life.

Talking crap

2009-06-20T22:41:00.001-07:00

Hey guys... The i-am-sorry-i-din-update-my-blog girl is here. Hhahaha.... Seriously! Well, the main reason is i'm starting to get addicted to movies. Well, dramas mostly and well, yeah.. I do find the chinese ones are childish but really funny. I mean, their movements are like... Yeah.
Oh yeah. Stupid results are out. Gosh. Mine sucks worst than shit. Oh well.. What to do. Don't feel like studying. Oh! My music exam's on 25 and 26 of June! How freaking shitty is that?!
I'm nt even ready! I hate it! I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate aural! i hate hate hate hate hate it!!!!!! Urgh! I hell don't know to slide up and down of my violin beautifully. Mine sounds more like a bunch of ducks waiting to be chopped. Ha! The perfect description.
Xin Tian so unfair! YOu finished yours already!!!! Urgh. Shit. This time is a woman!!! I can't actually "hiao" the examiner just so that i can pass. Hhaha.. Well. Mum doesn't want just 'pass'. She aim for merit. or well, the topest one! Which, is totally, really, IMPOSSIBLE for a lazy ass like me!Feel like throwing something now!! Just anything! And hit right in the head of someone who i don't know! But shit, I don't have the guts. Just in case that guy turn out to be some multi billionaire son and yeah. I'll get sued! Urghhh

Life

2009-05-10T18:24:00.001-07:00

Ever feel like nobody will give a shit about you? I mean, even though you say out your feelings or anything, nobody care. You really really feel depress but you know, then you realize that other people has their own problems too and you just don't feel like telling? Even as you tell, they act like it's nothing... Not like it's their fault.. But just that, you just don't know how to tell them that you are feeling really down and it's really frustrating, like nothing on Earth matters...
Worst thing is, you have nobody to tell to. Yeah, that's the worst. It's like a volcano trying so hard to explode but it just don't dare. Urgh! How I wish everyday can be like happy, around family and friends where fights never cross your mind and scolding and all those bad words and hurting words are never in your vocabulary. Then again, the world won't permit that. Just look around you... Almost everything is pain, hurt and all those shits. Even if they want to release their anger, it's through terrible ways.
Why can't life be just abit easier? God gave us pleasure and easiness and we accept it willingly and joy but why can't we accept the hardness that God give to us? Instead, we go around and explode and shout at anyting that caught your eyes. I'm not a saint. Heck, no. I would be the last person in your mind who will become a saint. Instead, i'm human. A terrible one. One that can't solve all the shitty problems, who is a terrible christian, one who can't even keep a friendship strong. When life is hard, we never open our eyes to things that we still have. When they are lost, then we start to realize how precious they are. Then again, we are human. But we can't use "human" as our excuse to act violently or start shooting everyone. God created us, therefore, we should follow His words, should we not?

what an "awsome"life..

2009-04-30T19:20:00.000-07:00

Hmmm.. Loads of craps happen this past few weeks. SOme are sooooooooo reallllyyyyyy realllllyyyyy embrassing... KInd of.. To me, at least.
Let's see. The most pelik one... Have the dumb singing competition! As usual, si 2 mesra got champion.. What to do.. and then.. 2 Setia-ns wasn't happy.(of cuz lah!!!) and the rest is....

NOT GONNA TELL YOU!

stupid essay writting competition... Wrote about i'm an orphan.. My mum died and felt guilty and all those shits. Who cares? Ain't wanna win..
DAMN!!!!!!!!! I just realized.

MY MUSIC EXAM IS SOON AND I HAVEN'T MASTER ALL THE CRAP SONGS!! SUre fail de lah
Exam is in two freakin' weekss. Freakin' awesom, huh.
and that's all..
If you consider your life sucky, try consider mine.

Tralalalalala.... Boring stuffs (wait! does stuff got s kah? Nvm lah!)

2009-04-16T18:27:00.000-07:00

Yay! Haiya.. So hard to masuk this dumb blog! Today's friday!! Yay!!!!
Last day of the week.. Isn't it weird? Like last day of the week, you're so darn happy and the begining of the week, it's terrible? Ah, well.. At least i get to meet my friends!
I'm such a freak for friends! Cuz not meeting them for like two days, i already miss them like mad? It's a wonder i survived for long term holiday!XD

This week has been..... long. Hmm, let's see what happened for the last one week. Ha! I got chocolate! from alfonsa, naturally.. Hahahaha.. I have to trade something for that chocolate! But hey! It was worth it!!!! cuz..... It was delicious until

XIN TIAN ATE ALMOST ONE FOR HERSELF!!!

it was during science period (in science lab) and we curi curi makan in science (i really do hope Pn. Law don't have blog and read this cuz she'll totally kill me and she really love her science lab) so i took a small tiny bite and that xin tian "accidently" ate the whole thing. Hhahaha.. It's was quite funny 'cause i keep on hitting her on the arm and she said ouch and al lthis ting. haha.. Pn law can't see me cuz i'm block by this malay girl who sit on the front table! Lucky me. Trust me. you ain't want to see teacher's face. I think she's wondering where all that noise came from. xp..
My bestfriends are crazy, as usual.. Shouting, screaming and so on. Come on! That's the FUN part of all of it! Being with them is like ..... i dunno. It just lift my spirit up!!! I love those two aliens! xD
Oh! We have this relaly dumb seni. I hate seni!!! CUZ I CAN'T DRAW OR COLOUR AT ALL!!!!
I will marry a husband who is good in seni and maths! (cuz i suck in maths so much!)

I kept telling people that! Urghhh... As if lah..
Okay, I guess that's all for my weekend.. Oh yeah! Did i mention that we ... wait! Don't want to tel you guys!

Bye bye!!!!

Easter virgil!!

2009-04-11T19:12:00.000-07:00

LET ME HEAR YOU SAY "WHEEEEEE"!!! haha.. That's because some people has just join in the family circle of christians!!!!

Anyway, went to chruch at about seven. (The mass started at eight but we went early so that we could get the good seats and which we did!)

Had rosary praying at 7:30..

You know, last night was the

FIRST TIME OF MY LIFE THAT I'VE BEEN INTO A CHINESE MASS!!!

They have like two languages (BDC chruch) and so, i was like struggling to listen but i made it!! (That's because the book was in English!) but ALL the singing's in ENGLISH! SOme of the readings was in chinese. and of course, English.

You know! The chinese way of pronoucing "Abraham" is really weird. Well, to me, at least. What i've notice, almost all the name translated from english to chinese is WEIRD. Hehhehe... No idea why. NO OFFENCE to those who translated the names!

I still salute you guys cuz, come on! Even a blind guy can see that my chinese is as worst as... i dunno.. The worst.

and then we had the baptism! hahah.. My aunt was one of them! OH yeah! In chruch, me and ash (my eldest sister) was whispering something (which I've forgotten what) and i laughed at something she said (I DID IT QUIETLY! I DO have respect to the church!) and this woman scolded us saying :" QUIET! PRAY! (and something in between)"

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, I was looking awkwardly to her and then to Ash, who just shrugged her shoulders.

And guess what! That woman (who scolded us)

TURN OUT TO BE MY AUNT'S GOD MOTHER!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Whoa! I know! I was shocked out of my wits!

Anyway, after all the shocking thing end, the mass started. All the lights was off (dun ask me why cuz i don't remember.xp) and then we all have to light our candles.

So, yeah! Nice enviroment. Okay, before all the lightings of the candles, the ones inside the chruch (including me and my sis and all cousins) hav to wait for the priest to arrive. AND you know! I saw a flying object somewhere near the window.. WIth robs and so on! I was like ........... WHAT IS THAT! and guess what, guys, it turned out to be the statue of Jesus.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Man! WHy am i always OVER-REACTING?!!! urgh. Typical me. xp

and all the baptism thingy go on. (I remember MY baptism!) Some of them even cried.

Oh yeah! My cousins, Megan(nine years old) and Debbie(seven years old) SANG SOOOO LOUD IN CHRUCH! you can hear them even within TEN MILES! Whoa, rite? But, it was great. It's nice to see some children sing so loud in chruch, other than, some kids crying!

It seems that, i see MORE BL students in BDC church than ST. Joseph..

This is the list of people i saw ( that i know, of course!)

1. Cynthia and her sisters (Cheryl and Claire)

2. M. Lydia and her husband ( i think)

3. Simon

4. Audrey and her brother, Bryan

5. This guy name Abel, I think

Yeah. I think that's all... Hahahah..

Mass ended erm... sometime around ten-forty. Ate supper with my newly-baptised aunt (Congrats, aunt!) and my sisters and all the naughty naughty cousin of mine, Drew, Meg and Deb.

I guess I'll end here... This is my wish to everyone:

HAPPY EASTER, GUYS!

a day NOT to remember!

2009-04-10T23:12:00.000-07:00

Ha-ha....
In si alfonsa's house now......

GUESS WHAT GUYS?! SHE WATCHED HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3!!!!!! CAN YOU ACTUALLY
BELIEVE THAT!!!!

Okay.. I'm gonna spare her the embrassment.
Anyway, gonnna tel u how my day went.. First.. I went to my EX piano centre! The teacher was ssooooooo enthusiastic(think i spelled it wrongly)!!!!!!!! I just put on pokerface, drag alfonsa out and ta-da!! the "adventure" begins
alfonsa was wearing a shirt tat writes " VIP room and lounge pass" and "all reggie festival and party everyday pass! admit one!" Yeah.. My bestfriend, a "vip" yg x jadi!!! hehehehehe......
anyway, she FORCE (she loves to force me!!!" me to ply river flow in you!!! so i played(quite pro-ly actually!.... NOT!) this is what alfonsa gotta to say :" I just say this to beri her muka...quite'pro' actually'Dont want to hurt her feelings!!"
OUCH!!! You call that a BESTFRIEND?! eurghhhhh.... Hahaha.. NVM LAH! jaga you ,al!!!! i hope you trip tonite! hehhe.. no lah!
anyway, after all the "show" i put on for gretel and alfonsa.(OH!!! GRETEL WAS WEARING THIS GINGERBREAD MAN SHIRT!!!!!! I LOOVVEE IT but well, it's HER shirt! i can't simply pull it off her head and wear it!) and we went to PIZZAHUT.. we ate till our stomach burst! HONESTLY!!! to whoever read this, pls take note :

DON'T ORDER TWO PIZZAS AND AN EXTRA SOMETHING ( me and al x dpt remember the
name) IF THERE IS ONLY THE THREE OF YOU!!!

We ate till we drop. Yeah! we "ta pao" home!! I think the waitress think we're weird! COME ON!!! so much pizza left! wat do you expect us to do?! OH OH OH!!!! We made this dish call "the three bff create" dish! it has pepper, salt, mushroom, green chillies, sotong, mayonese, chilly, tomato sauce, 7-up and pepsi! you shoud've tried it! (Even though i can't gurantee you can go home without running into the toilet)
oh yeah, si alfonsa can't upload the pics cuz her cable "gone missing" sooooo....... you can't see all the really weird dish and the dumb photos we took!

2009-04-10T05:47:00.000-07:00

HELLOOOO WORLDDDD!!!!

2009-04-10T04:37:00.000-07:00

Hello there!!! Hahaha... Oh well... I'm back into blog-ing!! (forced by alfonsa.. Apparently, my blog is soo interesting that someone actually forced me to create a new one!!!)
I lost my previous password so here i am.. xp.
Okay, I'm not such a fan on introducing myself to total strangers who are now, reading my blog (except for my BESTIES, they are :
Alfonsa= she is one hell of a crazy girl and if you can, this is my warning for you : STAY AWAY FROM HER OR ELSE SHE WILL TRANSFER HER CRAZINESS DISEASE TO
YOU!!
see? That's how i'm crazy right now.. All credits go to that bestfriend of mine!
Okay, the second one:
Gretel= People who just saw her will think she is a quiet girl, people who already knows her...

WISH THAT SHE WAS!!!

So obviously, this "crazy and siao" circle is like a disease.. Infecting all those who come near it and i'm the PERFECT example.)